it makes me kind of a bad person for wanting you all to myself, but the truth is I cannot live without you. I'm selfish because I love you so much and it makes me sad to think that you're not mine and I'm not yours. we're simply living in each other's lives without truly being in each other's lives (if that makes any sense). I want to stand still and don't look back at my past so I can focus on building a future, with you. but it's so hard not to fear the same shit I've already been through with someone who made me feel like you did but who wasn't exactly like you are. 

you took my hand and hold it so tight and for so long that I won't be able to let go of it anytime soon.